I’ve written before about the joys of work, the importance of being smart, sassy, full of joy and life beyond the boundaries of motherhood. And that is all still so true. But something has shifted and changed lately. Something like this is happening to me.
Is it Summer? The fun we’re having at our new trailer playing in the pool and riding bikes and making ready for Kindergarten?
I look at all of my daughters and love them of course, but recently I’m overcome with my like for them. Bubbles with her laugh and potato body and smooth silky hair, Talky with her personality and her demands and her language skills, Tempest with her soulful eyes and sweet joyful laugh.
And Kindergarten. Is. Coming. We’re getting shots, buying uniforms, making ready for school. School!! As a confirmed school junkie (the rules, the assignments, the grades, the teachers), the thought that my bright little girls get to enter the golden kingdom of education fills me with joy joy joy!
And somehow that makes us closer. So close I can smell them on my clothes and see them in my mind’s eye…. compare whatever I’m doing while away.. measuring it up against time with them.. their worth.. And everything. Everything is coming up short by comparison.